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There's is not the blood of flesh and bone, but instead that of cosmic storms and dying stars. No time, No time... but only NOW!

- Tobias Crabtree

Tobias Crabtree

Name

Nickname

1967

2017

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Tobias Crabtree

Tob

1967

2017

And what of me? i am born into this endlessness with a mind that dances and flickers in the wind of infinity. Our minds are the windows and we are but spectators of a play without end. So, upon this blue world we live and breathe and create. Here, we pretend to be of some great importance as we cast ourselves about, flaunting and gloating and screaming aloud until we are dead and nothing is left save the echo of our soul. So i ask myself, what will my echo be?

May my soul shout LOVE

- Tobias Crabtree

Tobias Crabtree's Story

Thoughts become words. Words become actions. Actions become habits. Habits become character. Character becomes Destiny.

There are moments where i see life in an almost impossible form. It does not present itself as some rare beautiful flower, but instead as something that has run its course. The worn and rutted road. The gnarled pine, struck by lighting, that still holds it's green. The tiny mountain woman, shrunken by years, spotted but time... she stands in her brown, thread-bare dress with a ribbon as her belt, tied in a bow. She stands not so much in front of me, but in the face of time himself. I saw a lifetime of wear in her walk but she was at the market. The tiny legs from under her dress might have been a 10 year old's. I carry her now... i carry her. I am no different.

And it is imagination, that little god, that breathes life into the darkest thoughts. A heaving beast that bruises even the strongest heart.

There are those that live in the shadow of fate and yet others who live in the full light of destiny.

Pockets... whatever we find in our pockets tells a little story. I emptied my pockets out this morning. I found 2 dollars and 17 cents in change, a stone awl i found in the desert from a couple hundred years ago, a Bobcat tooth, some Dollar bills, a phone, the pen I'm writing with, a couple of cards, and a leather holder.

Hello. Hello. remember me? I thought that you'd forgotten. I have some things you left behind, I'm quite sure that you lost them.

I see your doubting, pouting face, and you've far too much to do.

But trust me on this, there's something amiss, and I can see you through.

So meet me in the cave... with the drawings... that are lit by the moon as she wanes, and hangs so low.

Its plain to see you're wondering, just how I can to know you.

But words alone will not explain, some come find me and I'll show you.

Yes, darling,
I am the owl in the hollow, on silent mothy wing. I am old, forgotten bones, i am the hornets sting. I am the willows and the shade that cover amber streams where brook trout lilt and tilt and dream their piscine dreams.

I am the tiny bones and leather wings that cause the desert bat to swing between this world and that where nightshades bloom and poor wills call out across the flats.

I am forsaken foot-paths that long for naked feet and fires and prayers and songs and dance and wonderful-thundering hearts that beat.

I am the emerald sound that tolls through fathoms deep the song that rolls from whale's souls where ancient sorrows sleep.

I am the humped and bristled boar-back beast that cause lip to twitch in fevered dreams I am the fury. I am the time. I am the both in twain. I am all that ever was... and ever more remains.

I am every glint and flicker out the corner of your eye and enimagos, changing worlds.

I am every hoof and lash and curl, from every beast in every time.

And you,

My child,

You too are mine.

Story

“A people without the knowledge of their past history, origin and culture is like a tree without roots.”

– Marcus Garvey

 

We keep our loved ones alive with stories. Stories keep us connected. Stories allow us to hear their voices, to time travel with them, to keep them in our hearts forever. 

Tobias Crabtree
Tobias Crabtree
Tobias Crabtree
Tobias Crabtree

Colorado

Male

Born in

A

Nationality

American

Spoke

English

Faith

Sprititual

Choctaw and Irish

Cultural Heritage

Astrological Sign

Virgo

Zodiac Sign

Goat

Memories

Barnett Englsh
Barnett Englsh
Barnett Englsh
Barnett Englsh

Barnett Englsh

The poignant and epic saga of how Elmo still rides. Tobias was, hands down, the most sought after person at the Joshua Tree Music Festivals for many years. He would ply his trade at Kidsville, sitting patiently for hours on end, giving kiddos a personalized 'tattoo' with washable ink. The kids loved their tattoos. And they loved the stories that Tobias would regale them with. But neither had as much of an impact as his ears. Tobe was a professional listener. He actually paid attention to people when conversing. At his memorial, I realized that everyone there felt as if they were one of his very best friends. And to him, we all are. We all felt that way because he actually......listened. And felt both your joys and pain with you. Gone too soon. Now riding the quad pulling the Love Train full of kiddos in his Elmo get up.......priceless.
Caroline PM Jones
Caroline PM Jones
Caroline PM Jones
Caroline PM Jones

Caroline PM Jones

There is too much to say about the love we all have for Tobias, and the stories are countless and the laughs immeasurable. There is no one like Tob, the most special of friends, I would introduce him to those that had not met him as a Mowgali of the desert and raconteur extraordinaire. We spent so many days and weeks wandering the Joshua Tree national park together. You showed me secret caves where the Hands were painted on the ceilings of ancient tribal Indians, and rock faces that reminded us of leviathan creatures. You taught me how to make fire in the parking lot behind the Rattler cafe, and again as we wandered looking for mouse fluff and cactus skeletons and certain bits of wood as friction sticks way back beyond sheep pass. How many times did we climb the rocks and sit and talk, how many times did we talk heart aches and love, relationships and journeys, adventures and tales. I would sketch the multitude of forms infront of me and you would sketch away alongside, and we would laugh and laugh and laugh at the differences in what we saw - mine jumbo rocks and desert scenes and yours - 100 balloons floating on high with the might of a young boy hanging on. We hung out in LA at my studio and at my home - I even got you to draw all over my kids at Olivias birthday when she was 6 - all those westside parents aghast at their sharpee tattoos, all the kids delighted and exhilarated! We talked about dreams, I would dream things and you would draw them. We had a huge laugh the day we went to little Tokyo in downtown LA to buy you your special pens - it was a comicon of japanese's anime and all these asians were dressed as anime super hero and we slurped noodles and giggled away irreverently. I got so many of my friends to have your tattoos, but never got one myself, but you drew for me time and time again, for my kids, for my friends and for me. I love you so much Tobias, I see you in the flight of the crows, and I know you're just loving your onward journey.

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